Friday, August 23, 2013

剛讀完 Marilynne Robinson 的《Gilead》。不能說是很精釆,卻是叫人深深地回味的小說。就好像一個主婦,將人性、罪過、期盼、掙扎、悔疚、寬恕、美善、孤寂、破碎、諒解、活著、信仰、生和死,平實地放在飯桌上。嚐了,吃了,沒有能激發誇張的讚美,卻又滿足了吃飯最基本的要求,從心底裡感受著活著那淡然的愉悅。 

故事是一位爸爸寫給他孩子的扎記。爸爸是一位年老的牧者,於晚年再婚才有一個孩子。眼看著那才6歲的孩子,感受著自己的衰退,他把自己人生旅途上的一些片段寫下,留給孩子。扎記中,爸爸間中會說自己沒有什麼可留下給孩子,連歷年累積下來的講章也準備要燒掉。然而他訴說人生的那份淡然;對信仰那真誠的掙扎;對人性那顫驚而執著的探索,本身已是一份給他孩子寶貴的禮物。而在字裡行間所散發著對孩子的情,更是無可取代的遺傳。

其中一段他是這樣說的:
I'm writing this in part to tell you that if you ever wonder what you've done in your life, and everyone does wonder sooner or later, you have been God's grace to me, a miracle, something more than a miracle. You may not remember me very well at all, and it may seem to you to be no great thing to have been the good child of an old man in a shabby little town you will no doubt leave behind...

I supposed you're not prettier than most children. You're just a nice-looking boy, a bit slight, well scrubbed and well mannered. All that is fine, but it's your existence I love you for, mainly. Existence seems to me now the most remarkable thing that could ever be imagined. I'm about to put on imperishability. In an instant, in the twinkling of an eye. 

扎記中的一些內容其實頗深。不是知識上的深奧,而是需要有一定的人生閱歷才能領悟。其中的道理,也不見得孩子在長大後一定會全盤接受。但當中的那份情,孩子再小,離得再遠,也該能感受到吧。


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